To be honest, everyday I think about how truly amazing you are and how lucky I am to be with you. But then again lately I have been having seconds thoughts, I totally feel like I am going to loose you its not just a thought but a daily reality that mentally, emotionally and spiritually my entire life is going to change because you are going to walk out of it. Now I want you to close your eyes and picture right now a daily fear of not being with the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Not only does its bring tears to your eyes, and churning sensation to your stomach but a deathly terrifying chock to your heart thinking that you are going to be single and watch the one you love go off and spend forever with someone.
I am not implementing anything, I defiantly don't want to leave you and I definatly don't want you to leave me either its just whenever I look into your eyes I fall more madly inlove with you and I think you have the right to know how truly scared I am to loose you one day. You are THE best thing that has ever happened to me (other then giving my life to Christ OBVIO ;) ) but i DONT want to loose you. I need you to promise me make a decleration an oath (I know it sounds dumb but its true) i need you to show me your not going to hurt me to leave me to break me to tear me down instead I need you to love me at my best and my worst and show me you never want to loose me cause baby i dont want to loose you EVER.
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