We talked on the phone for a total of 18 minutes

Those eighteen minutes made my day you don't even know, going to school all day is a part of life but facing all the haters, listening to all the bullshit etc isn't the fun part. I get so insecure at school surrounded by people who think they are better then me I try my best to smile at everyone I pass in the halls but I never get many smiles back but beyond the point that I strongly dislike school is the fact that I strongly strongly love you & it's incredibly amazing. Talking to you puts a permanent smile on my face for the rest of the day. One of the reasons I always text you is because I love saying cute things that could potentially put a smile on your face :) I love you baby

Baby

Tbh, I love you very very much. I know I haven't blogged very much latley its just I have seen you so much it's crazy! But I have to stop skipping bc I have skipped 6 classes in 2 weeks that's bad :/ but whatever I'm not worried about that! Baby I want to thankyou very much for being there for me last night when I told you about how my relationship with Christ and how it was weak you helped me through you made me make a decision & that's exactly what I need someone to give me that little boost of encouragement . Zachary Jackson I am madly inlove with you & I am planning on spending the rest of my life with you. I know I'm high strung alot and the fact that you still love me through all my craziness is crazy on it's own... But I love you and thankyou for helping me last night I feel so much stronger <3 thanks for having my back baby love you lots

You rapped tonight

Man was it ever amazing,it sounds so free & so natural that it's amazing I loved it & I am not just saying that like it's the truth.

And also baby this week I am going to try REALLY hard to not freakout or get angry at you I will try hard I promise <3

Does he truly get it ?

Does zach truly understand that the little blog posts, facebook display picture change & the cute little things actully mean the world to me. The fact that he changed his display picture to a pic of just him & I actully made me want to ball tears of happiness (it meant the universe to me) and even more amazing is the fact that he's writing me something like that is the cutest ( but I'm not getting my hopes up he will probably forget )

Your the man I want, but it is way to good to be true

To be honest, everyday I think about how truly amazing you are and how lucky I am to be with you. But then again lately I have been having seconds thoughts, I totally feel like I am going to loose you its not just a thought but a daily reality that mentally, emotionally and spiritually my entire life is going to change because you are going to walk out of it. Now I want you to close your eyes and picture right now a daily fear of not being with the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Not only does its bring tears to your eyes, and churning sensation to your stomach but a deathly terrifying chock to your heart thinking that you are going to be single and watch the one you love go off and spend forever with someone. 
I am not implementing anything, I defiantly don't want to leave you and I definatly don't want you to leave me either its just whenever I look into your eyes I fall more madly inlove with you and I think you have the right to know how truly scared I am to loose you one day. You are THE best thing that has ever happened to me (other then giving my life to Christ OBVIO ;) ) but i DONT want to loose you. I need you to promise me make a decleration an oath (I know it sounds dumb but its true) i need you to show me your not going to hurt me to leave me to break me to tear me down instead I need you to love me at my best and my worst and show me you never want to loose me cause baby i dont want to loose you EVER.