It all happened better then I thought

So frig, the most absolute thing happened last night. He was driving me home and had a secret to tell me he told me and thought I would totally not look at him the same way agian, but after that it just showed and proved to me how much he truly cares about me for telling me a secret. Then I told him I needed to tell him something I told him a friend of both of ours had come to me and said she thought if I was older we would be a cute couple. It took me a while for that whole sentence to come out and when it did he told me well that is what I was going to discuss with you on your 18th birthday. He told me he had fallen for me and loved me and I started to cry and told him I wanted to tell him for awhile but just couldnt do it. He held me in his arms like I was his girl and I cried and cried he asked me why and I said because I can't make you wait two years for me he said I will and I said I'll wait eternity for you. He brought me home & we couldn't say goodbye I would go to walk in and he'd come grab me or id turn around and run back to him. This boy is handsome, smart, funny, cute, adorable, kind, compassionate and mine and I am so grateful for that. Big deal if I have to wait two years till we date I will if that means we can be together. And when we kissed the whole world was put on pause & only we mattered. Last night changed the future of my life and I just really hope he dosent break me heart

Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth.
I saw this and all I thought about is how friggen worth it you are.

I don't want to be a broken hearted girl

I just want to be your girl.

a broken heart on my part is worth your happiness.

I'm going to smile and make you think I'm happy, I'm going to laugh, so you don't see me cry, I'm going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me- I'm going to smile because all I want in this world is for you to be happy. Even if it breaks my heart its all that matters to me.

So I had a thought.

I have this thought, everyone always told me if you were living and happy before you met that person then you must be okay and happy when they leave. But truth is if you ever walked out of my life I wouldn't be okay, You make me the happiest girl on the planet, and before I met you I wasn't happy. If you were to walk out of my life forever I wouldnt want to live anymore, I wouldn't want to breathe a breathe without knowing we were okay. Today you called me your best friend and I hope one day you can call me your true love aswell. I care about you SO much that words cant explain and knowing I am an important part in your life worries me that one day I wont be.

You Have NO Idea.

We were driving in the car on our way home from Starbucks, and we got stuck in traffic because some loogin got their car stuck in the ditch. You told me you hoped for my sake that the first person I ever would fall inlove with would be the boy I marry. I told you I really hope your right, considering the fact that I am madly inlove with every little piece of you.

At Fifteen

After having my heart broken I asked God to protect my heart and not let in get hurt again. I asked him to peke me from falling in love, I asked him to hold me and not let my heart get caught up in any boy. Then you came along and swept me off my feet. I feel in love and always will I love you. There is no way in hell I am ever going to tell you how I feel, one day I am going to have to watch you marry another women and its going to break my heart but there is nothing I can do about it. I love you like my big brother but I also truly love you for you. You make me the happiest girl alive. And no football player, no prep, no other guy is ever going to meet the standards that you have set in my heart without even knowing. My soul mate is going to have to exceed what you have to offer me and the world and Im sorry but I don't see any other man meeting those expectatations. Me and you click and I don't think anyone is ever going to realize that.

How Much I Truly Love You

I love him like all the planets in the world combined in one big HEART <3

Your Six Years Older Then Me

So, truth is there is only one reason that I made this blog. Its not a place to let out all my feelings just one type. I am crazy about this boy who is six years older then me. Me and him do alot together and he makes me happy, he always knows what to day and so in all situations. He calls me pretty and not only does he care about me but I care about him to. I want him to be the happiest boy alive and I know that one day he will be weather he is with me or with another girl. I will however not be happy if I have to see him with another women one day but if that's what makes him happy then that is all that will matter. The only thing about him is that he is six years older then me, our relationship has always been strong in a brotherly sisterly way I just don't know how he is going to take it if I tell him how I truly feel. :(